Went to my church’s bi-annual church camp from last Friday to Sunday.
Whenever church camp happens, I just go expecting to play lots of basketball and spend a lot of time socialising with people – and every time my expectations were met.
This church camp seemed different. Is it because:
- I only showed up Friday night and so I missed an entire day?
- the talks were of a serious/philosophical nature (more on that later)?
- I’ve started working full-time and my body isn’t as “tolerant” as before (I can’t stay up that late and function normally the next day anymore)?
- I’ve been quite anti-social at church recently?
Probably a combination of these various reasons made me enjoy church camp less than before. Looking at the list, 3 of the items on the list are internal and not due to external factors.
I’ve had people say to me that I’ve been out of action (in ministry) for far too long. That I have to agree with. I really miss the feeling of working in ministry. I was given a shocking reminder when I led the Sunday service. The atmosphere and the literal “vibration” that I felt on stage when everyone in the congregation sings together cannot be described with words.
Talking with a few people about what they’re doing in their ministries has made me reminisce and think about the times that I had.
It was easy back then to identify with particular ministries at church. I was a student – so working in student ministry was obvious. I can lead worship services – so worship ministry was also obvious. It’s not so obvious anymore – and I haven’t been able to find the ministries that I “obviously” identify with.
So I sit here to rot, doing nothing apart from turning up every Sunday.
Someone asked me whether I felt that it is a “waste” for me to end up like this. I said at the time that I just felt “under-utilised”.
It is a waste. Time to stand up and be counted.
